Let’s Touch Base!

Well hello. It’s been a hot minute our last chat.

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Since my last post I’ve:

  • Travelled to NYC for a major work event

  • Participated in another major launch for work

  • Planned social strategy for a major collaboration at work

  • Went to Disneyland for my second to last planned vacation of the year

  • Attended D23 Expo for the first time ever

  • Planned and executed social strategy for another major collaboration at work (nanananana)

  • Travelled to San Diego for an industry event (work and to see friends)

  • Started participating in Inktober 2019 (doing great so far!)

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Seeing it all listed out makes me exhausted. Some of those I was in places for over a week, others had a nice lead up time to execution, and then there is the happiness of Disneyland. It’s crazy for me to think that two years ago I was spiraling into a dark space and now I’ve just had a crazy year traveling for work and getting to help with some awesome initiatives with a group of amazing coworkers.

Now that we are getting to the end of the year I’m looking forward to continuing to tackle Inktober, planning my major birthday trip to Disney World, and continuing to see awesome growth at work for myself and my team. I’ve been working away at a personal project that I’m really excited about for my Instagram and I can’t wait to share that with all of you. I’m looking to launch it on November 1st, felt that would be a perfect time after finishing up Inktober.

What have you been up to? What goals are you looking to accomplish before the year ends?

Let's Brush The Dust Off

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LET’S BRUSH THE DUST OFF!

Hey, how have you been? That’s awesome. Oh, I’ve been doing okay. Still getting back into a good rhythm since the last time I posted on this space (which was just about two months ago!!) I spent some time doing a lot of self-reflection, getting a bit of my personal life in order, and recently got back from a week long vacation at Disney World —I’ll be talking about the trip in a later post.

So, what’s going to happen with this space? Well, your girl is gonna attempt to give it one last good go. I’ve got a personal goal in mind for the remainder of the year regarding this blog (I won’t share it until I do my year in review so let’s see if I keep it up until then eh?) Biggest thing I have decided to do is focus this blog a bit more. Previously, I was just trying to do ALL THE THINGS but I’ve realized that while I have a lot of things that I am interested in that doesn’t mean I’m passionate enough to write about them.

With that said, I’ll be focusing this blog on one of my major loves: Disney! You’re probably thinking “but what about your art, crafts, books, etc?! Don’t you love talking about them?!” and you will be pleasantly surprised to learn that none of that changes! I have a ton of books on my TBR list that are related to Disney’s take on fairy tales, lots of movies I want to talk about under the Disney brand, I’ve started some brainstorming on new art projects, and even some cross stitching stuff. Now this doesn’t mean I won’t talk about some of my other geeky loves (like Harry Potter, Pokemon, or movies that really excite me), I just realized after getting back from Disney World that I tried to fit myself into a ton of different buckets but when I sat down for a moment in my office I looked around and realized that everything on my walls was Disney related (Funkos, Minnie Ears, and even art) so making it one of the primary focuses of the blog just made so much sense.

I also had a realization that every time I would try to push to do more things outside of my day job I would start panicking as if all of my time HAD to be spent on my day job. That is such a toxic mindset to have and after spending so much time at Disney World and just completely tuning out of work I can finally say that I’ve given myself a little break through. There are so many women I look up to who tackle lots of personal projects while also kicking butt at their day jobs. There is zero reason why I can’t do the same.

So here’s to new beginnings and to bringing just a little bit of magic to your day.

♡ Mana

I Hit Burnout...

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I HIT BURNOUT…

I had known that I was basically running on fumes the last couple years as I pushed myself to keep going above and beyond on everything that I was doing. Of course when you do that it means that you’re going to start failing at most, if not all, those things when you aren’t giving yourself time to rest.

So a couple weeks ago (funny enough, a few days after my last blog post went up) I had a breakdown. I got unbearably sad at the thought of wanting to draw after I was inspired by a book I had just finished moments earlier. It’s only been two weeks since that incident and I am still recovering.

Burnout is just a never ending cycle, a simple vacation isn’t going to fix it. You have to be willing to make a fundamental lifestyle change and find that work-life balance that works for you. I am lucky in that I have an understanding partner and I work at a company that supports you taking care of yourself.

I have realized that I put things aside that I enjoy to focus solely on supporting the companies I work for instead of realizing that I can support my day job while still making time for supporting my own personal projects. They don’t have to be mutually exclusive. I also stopped investing in my friendships with people I care about because I let myself believe that they “understand the hustle” but I should’ve realized I was playing into a thought process that didn’t align with my personal values.

  • I stopped creating art.

  • I stopped working on craft projects.

  • I stopped streaming.

  • I stopped making videos.

  • I stopped blogging.

  • I stopped spending time with friends.

  • I stopped playing video games.

  • I stopped reading books.

I realized all of this after taking some time to just mellow out and listen to my inner voice. In that moment of self-reflection I had the “ah-ha” moment that a lot of points where I was feeling a lot of the effects of burnout I was also changing my hair away from purple. I love my hair being purple, its “my” color, and I now know that when I suddenly want to completely change it up that there is something off so I will stop to ask myself “what’s wrong?” —because boy did I get lucky that the black hair dye I used in my hair recently didn’t stick and I was able to get my hair back to its full purple glory.

So where am I headed from this point? Well, I’ve been trying to take it day by day. Focusing on trying to find the simple joys in drawing, reading, playing games, and reaching out to friends. It’s been a slow process and things definitely aren’t going to change overnight. But I know that I have people to lean on during the rough times and that I don’t have to give up my career to do the personal projects that I want to do. Everything can coincide together as long as I remember that I don’t have to take on all the things all the time and to take steps in the size that work for me — not the size that works for everyone else.

Be prepared for world domination in 2019 ;)

♡ Mana

Sparking Joy In My Life

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SPARKING JOY

IN MY LIFE

Yesterday the new Netflix Original Series, Tidying Up With Marie Kondo, premiered and as soon as I watched the first episode I knew I was hooked. I’ve been recommended her book, The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up, and while I have purchased it for my Amazon Fire I have found myself avoiding the book. But watching this show made me emotional and felt like the kick in the pants that I sorely needed.

First, I want to say that Marie Kondo seems like the sweetest and most loving person on the planet and I want to be her best friend. Second, this show has definitely made me want to start reading her book. Third, can we all just admire all of her outfits in the show?! She is basically a Disney Princess IRL.

Now to the meat of this…

In May of 2013 moved out of my parents house to try making a true go at accomplishing one of my dream career goals (want to say that I totally crushed it and am still crushing it!) but the beginning of that journey was rough. I moved to a place that was ridiculously expensive and even though I had a nice little nest egg from an account created by my great grandmother and money I had earned while freelancing it was hard. The first 7 months I had moved to three different apartments and was having to dive head first into this dream knowing finances would be tight for a while.

In that time I had to share a room with another person which made it harder to feel like I could spread my wings and figure out my style in my own room. Even when I did finally get to have my own space I found myself feeling overwhelmed. Especially since I was living paycheck to paycheck you never feel like you can really get your feet off the ground. In March 2015 my partner and I moved in together and then in March of 2018 we moved all of our belongings from the west coast to the east coast.

Since then I’ve been so wrapped up in stuff for my day job that I haven’t yet spent anytime on our home (we now live in a 4 bedroom home vs a 1 bedroom apartment). But in that time I’ve constantly been buying stuff. Whether its notebooks, art and craft supplies, video games, electronics, clothing, etc. I just keep spending. It’s nothing outrageous (you won’t see me on an episode of hoarders) but it hasn’t been sparking any joy in my life.

I feel like this new show came at such a weird and wonderful time for me where I have a lot of personal goals for 2019 but I need to start sparking the joy in my own space before I can spark joy in other things.

If you haven’t yet, definitely check out the show. I’m going to go on a life changing journey on de-cluttering my life and I’ll keep you updated on how things turn out!

♡ Mana

My Unrealistic Goals For 2019

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MY UNREALISTIC GOALS FOR 2019

Recently I was inspired by the lovely Jordan, from Hello Miss Jordan to write out a list of unrealistic goals for 2019 (she recently did a follow up to her post highlighting the status of the goals and its truly inspiring!) 

These are crazy, aspirational goals that I'm not 100% sure I will actually achieve next year but the possibility is truly exciting. After all, you have to put out the positive vibes in order to get positive outcomes right?

So here are my 5 'Unrealistic' Goals for 2019:

1. Reach these follower milestones: 20K Twitter, 10K Instagram, 10K Twitch, 100 Patrons

I know this seems a bit ridiculous, especially considering folks always talking about how its not about the numbers, but there is a small sense of pride in knowing that people are interested in what you are saying. So here are numbers that I consider unattainable for me right now (and this is coming from someone who has to understand algorithms and data on a daily basis for work lol). 

2. Collaborate with Disney / Pixar / Studio Ghibli

If this actually happened I might cry. I know that all three are connected (Disney owns Pixar and they release distribute Studio Ghibli films) but they are three that I look up to for the stories, creativity, and inspiration they provide me, and others, every day.

3. Be invited to a Disney film premiere.

I would legitimately freak out about this. There are so many movies releasing next year for Disney that being part of that magic would be surreal.

4. Travel to 12 different places.

Outside of traveling for work related purposes I rarely, if ever, travel for my own personal pleasure. I'd like to change that.

5. Go to one international Disney Park.

This needs no explanation lol.

What are some of your unrealistic goals for the 2019?

♡ Mana